hiiii everyone!! just got back from matt's new apartment. it's wicked nice. and he's so nice. i'm gonna miss him, we've been really close lately. ((his roommate isn't that bad looking either so let me know if you're interested)) i hope y'all UMF'ers had a great first few days of classes. i miss u guys! i'm leaving saturdayyyy to move in!!!! lauren's coming obviously. yippeeee! AAHHHHHUERYT9O8Y43065Y43Q750QPH; QO;3I54U6Q8Y!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait! good luck with everything this year. come visit.

yay for green day again! on saturday. with my one and only....LAUREN!

peace out to all mah peepZ. xoxo

ANDY BEAN COMES HOME TOMORROW NIGHT !!!! ONE LAST TIME !!!! YAY WISH ME LUCK <3

look @ my pictures. this basically describes my life for the summer. besides working every minute of my life.

http://community.webshots.com/user/welovetitties

ps. 1 MORE WEEK TIL MARYLAND. can't f-ing wait. I'M GONNA SEE STRIPPERSSSSS WOOHOOOO

pps. lauren i miss you and i hate your job

ahh so i guess christmas vacation isn't that bad. i have had so much fun, besides stupid work, and i still have 2 weeks left. new years was a blast. something actually worked out this year, and i know it was well deserved by all! went to a party in portland at a friends house. there were soo many people there from high school, and it was nice ot see everyone. random people were there that i never ever thought i would be partying with, haha, but it was just great. so my new years basically lasted 3 days. wasn't very healthy, not gonna lie. but who the fuckkk cares! i realized how much i miss hanging out with lauren every day and partying every night. and waking up to go to work still drunk. i stayed up til 4am saturday night playing beer pong! i have never been so obsessed with it before in my life!! i was playing against jeff and some kid named tricky, and they kept winning. so i said no sleep until i win. that didn't happen, so i gave up. maybe if my partner (lauren) didn't wander off and leave me by myself, we would have pulled through. hehe..

so i've been hanging out with this kid ben. we dated the summer before my senior year and then he went to school in NY. but now he goes to orono. he randomly called me one night while i was at a party drunk, weird, i know, and we hung out tuesday and wednesday. he's so much fun, and he is SO NICE!! he's the type of guy you want everyone to meet, even your parents. he's just so cool, and im glad we got to catch up. tuesday night we met up because he lives in bath, rented a movie, and i went to his soccer game. how cute! i didnt get home until 3am and i had to work @7. not a good idea folks. but they sent me home early thanks godddd because i was useless. then last night we drank at his house. we played pool and darts and cards. and guess what?!?!?!?! he bought me coronas!!!! WOAH he definitely knows how to treat a lady. haha. so i drank a lot, threw up a few times. it was hott, to say the least. but i got to cuddle! yay! for more details: inquire within. and believe me, you want to know............

i miss my friends so much! i think about you guys all the time, and every single thing ((or person)) i do or say or see or hear makes me think of you and i usually just end up laughing by myself..cuz im cool.

mel - have so much fun on your cruise. dont hit a glacier and meet some hotties to bring into my princess tent! make me proud! I LOVE YOU!!

mommy J - come out with us soon please because we miss you and we need to catch up. oOo.

hamy - i can't wait to start out pet hotel from our room. we're so clean and arduous!

christopher - i fucking miss you so bad! i miss being rubbed every night, and people around here think it's weird when i demand them to rub me....fuckin mainers.

everyone else - i love you and cant wait to see you! have a great vacation!! xOxOxOxO

okay so off to bed for me since i'm still drunk. work tomorrow should be a good time as always, but then i get to wait for a special phone call :) something to look forward to atleast.....

i'm an auntie !! auntie nessa...awwww!!!!

joleen had her baby on christmas eve at like 2 in the afternoon. it's a beautiful baby girl, and oh my godd shes so friggan cute. most babies are ugly when they are first born, but not this one. her name is jazzmine. i love her, and she has blonde hair!! and she's going to be a cheerleader i know it! and shes gonna be to cute!! im so happy for joleen. she's only 18, but she needed this surprisingly. she's so great with kids, and she's just an awesome person all around. i love her!

christmas even i hung out with matt. he came over and we watched christmas movies and cuddled. ahh my favorite. my mom and nana kept coming in my room to try and hang out with us and they said they wanted to cuddle. they're so funny. and my mom let me drink her beer!

I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND GOT ALL THEY WANTED!! santa came to my house and i got a new hott digital camera..oOo and it even has video taping so we can make porn back at school. as usual. haha. i had a pretty good christmas. it was hard not having important family with me, but i made it with the help from my mommy. we went to the hospital in the morning to see my grandfather. he seemes a lot better and i was so thankful. towards the end of our visit, he started saying sad things again so i just left before it made me too upset. we got up around 6..which is actually late for our house. then we spent most of the day at my cousin darcies house. i had a lot of fun, and it was nice to see all my family that i havent seen in forever! i got a lot of cool stuff. ie: clothes, RED SOX SHOT GLASS AND LADYBUG SLIPPERS FROM DADDY, money, jewelery, red sox corona holder :) , makeup, games, fun stuff! i got a really cool game that will be wicked fun to play at school. its a word game so it should be interesting, haha! omg!! when we were almost done unwrapping presents, my mom handed me one last one, and it was from MY GRAMMY!! my mom found it in their house while she was over there one day, and it had some wicked old recepies..like from the 1800's and an antique bowl from germany because my grammy used to live there. i started crying so hard, because it was so nice! and it's so weird that she had that present ready for me...she must have known something was going to happen. it was amazing when i saw the tag and it said "to vanessa, love gram". it made my day! thenn i went to laurens last night and watched tv with her. i miss her so much! yay for summer in 5 months so we can live together again!!!!

so this morning i woke up wicked early and went shopping with my mommy at like 8am. we were at the mall for 7 hours!! we like shopping, and we got the maaaad deals. i looked for shoes but of course i didnt find any because they are all those stupid pointy witch shoes. ew. not my style. okay anyways..take a look at some pictures i took yesterday with my new cam. i should have taken more, but oh well.

( Christmas Pictures!! )
Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: dace matthews band

i have the biggest headache ever, probably because i've been crying nonstop. im so frustrated!!!! everything seems negative lately and depressing. it's christmas and it doesnt even seem like it. i'm slowly losing my family..my dad's in jail, yupp i know, my one and only grammy died, and my grandfather is in the hospital again because he is wasting away to nothing and he's giving up on his life. i can't even visit him anymore, which sounds really mean, but i can't. it makes me sick even thinking about it, and it kills me to go in there and think that he has to spend his last days in that smelly deathly place. i can tell he doesn't want me to stay long when i visit anyways. tonight my stepdad and brother went in to see him and he grabbed their hand and told them to please leave and remember him the way he used to be. how fucking sad is that....he's just giving up on everything, and i have a bad feeling about this. so i will probably be going to church on christmas eve by myself unless any of my asshole friends ((excluding jessie)) here decide to come with me. i usually go with my grandparents but we all know that isn't happening. ughh. i have their kitty now..he stays with me downstairs because my dog will eat it. hes so nice, and hes a little playful kitten so we get along great. whenever i look at him i want to cry, because he looks so sad, more than a person. he knows whats going on i know it. cuz cats are smart. i had fun in rhode island..i wish i was still there with my friends. i miss you guys! im gonna go now because i obviously have so much to do tonight. i worked today from 9-5. it wasn't actually all that bad, everyone is so nice and they make it fun for us there. supposed to hang out with matt tonight, but i didn't. weird..

im just waiting for more bad news.....everytime the phone rings i feel like im gonna throw up.

so im home, bleh. still stressful and sad around the holidays without my grammy here and my grandfather in an assisted living place.i went to visit him today, and its really nice. although the nurse was kindof a cunt and that pissed me off. its so sad to see him there. but my mom brought his cat in with him so he has some company now. he's so cute and i miss him so much. it's sad to think that the holidays aren't as exciting as they used to be when i was little. i'm still happy, but its just not the same for some reason, and i dont like it. i went to my brothers bball game tonight. oh yeah, i sliced my finger open today on a christmas ball ornament. awesome. how convenient. i just stared at it and then yelled out "SHIT!!" really loud in a whiny voice and my mommy came running out in the living room. she cares about me, i love her. hung out with my friends last night. well, basically it was me and a bunch of my dirty guy friends sitting around playing poker and passing shots around the table, ohh how i missed the life in westbrook. i love them and miss them, and yes, it was a good time. and no, i cannot forget, that matt called me :)  :) yay! he's so nice...he called to invite me to his company christmas party on saturday night ((aww)) but DONT WORRY..it's like the one night im not going to be around. fucking thanks a lot melissa. haha just kiddinggggg baby i love you and i would obviously rather come visit you and sleep in your radical sheets. hahaha. sooooooooo

!!!!RHODE ISLAND TOMORROW!!!!

omg do me please. i cannot wait. i miss melissa so much even though i saw her yesterday. and the ride down with christopher should be a good random time. and amy is coming sunday!! hMm i wonder how many new highway boyfriends i will get this time....

then it's back here to work wednesday allllll day. ewww, how grotesque is that??

okay. love y'all so much! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! MUUUAH!!

you know, it really takes a lot to make me hate someone. but SHE can do it. so here is a song that amy and i can relate to at times like these..uggghhhh. i hate selfish, immature hoes. girls suck.

'i'LL ThiNk oF a ReAsOn LaTeR'  bY LeaNNe WoMacK

I heard he was gonna marry some girl from Denver
Then my sister came over, had the Sunday paper with her
There was the girl on the social page
Lookin' in love and all engaged
We decided she don't take a very good picture

It may be my family's redneck nature
Rubbin' off, bringin' out unlady-like behavior
It sure ain't Christian to judge a stranger
But I don't like her
She may be an angel who spends all winter
Bringin' the homeless blankets and dinner
A regular Nobel Peace Prize winner
But I really hate her
I'll think of a reason later

I drew horns and blacked out her tooth with a marker
Childish, yes, but she made such a thin little target
I couldn't be happier on my own
But I've got the slightest of a jealous bone
And seein' her with him tends to enlarge it

It may be my family's redneck nature
Rubbin' off, bringin' out unlady-like behavior
It sure ain't Christian to judge a stranger
But I don't like her
She may be an angel who spends all winter
Bringin' the homeless blankets and dinner
A regular Nobel Peace Prize winner
But I really hate her
I'll think of a reason later

Inside her head may lay all the answers
For curin' diseases from baldness to cancer
Salt of the earth and a real good dancer
But I really hate her
I'll think of a reason later

(Spoken) Well, it was just one tooth
Did I mention I don't particularly care for her?
She makes me sick...

im going home in a lil bit...yet again. im so sick of driving home, but i always have reasons i have to go. my grandfather is in the hospital because he took an overdose of his medicine by accident. my grammy used to do everything for him, and now she isn't here. sad huh? i feel bad for him, hes so cute! so im going to go spend the day with his and keep him company because nobody should have to stay in a smelly sketchy hospital all alone. tomorrow is BOSTON!!!! yay for my interview at suffolk, i cannot wait! christina is coming with me because she wants to go to shcool around there too. we're gonna do some shopping and go out to eat. yay! then i'll probably go out saturday night and do some random things. then sunday im hanging out with my daddy and it's lauren's birthday! hopefully i'll get to see her this weekend for a bit, i miss her so much! i cant wait til summer.

so it's time to eat with chris now before i leave. only 2 weeks til we go home for christmas! weird. one more week of classes then some finals, hottttt dayum.

talk to you all soon. love you so much! have a great weekend :)

IT'S SNOWING!!!!